Colm Sullivan's Journal
Colm Sullivan's journey from Ireland to Maine begins
Collective Obsessions Saga by Deidre Dalton (aka
As the first lighthouse keeper at Banshee Point, Colm records his
private musings, dreams and desires as he begins a new life on the
I am the first lighthouse
keeper at Banshee Point, and this is my first day in Maine, on
the demesne of Mr. John Larkin. He hired me a few days ago in
New York City, finding me on the docks with other immigrants
from Ireland. Because I worked with lighthouses in my beloved
Malahide, Mr. Larkin hired me to look after his new one. He
seems like a fair-minded man from the old sod, and has sympathy
for us just arriving in America.
Colm also falls in love with John Larkin's mercurial
Molly is mine. She came to me
last night in the cottage, alone. The ocean was beating on the
shore. I was lying in bed, listening to the sounds of the sea. I
did not hear her enter the room, but all of a sudden she was
there, standing at the foot of my bed. She must have come in
through the door leading to the porch. She left the porch doors
open, and the wind blew in behind her, moving the curtains and
But he soon despairs over their secret affair:
How could I have been so wrong
about Molly Larkin? I thought she was different from other
well-bred women, but she is not different - she is the same,
only much worse. I love a mere image, not a vibrant, passionate
woman. I am bereft, like never before. I have lost the love of
my life, only she was not a love at all. She was a farce, a
concoction in my stupid, peasant brain. Molly is a dirty,
heartless bitch, but I will not let our time together be in
vain. I will make it matter, make her take notice.
I swear it. . .
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